a log entry of a research dream

Adding a counter to the blog recently makes me more aware of the geographic distribution of readers. Being aware of my changing role from a PhD student to a lecturer makes me more careful in what I blog about: stuff that is too personal, especially when writing under the mood of disillusionment, can be couched in exaggeration. Two entries I have written but have withdrawn are still part of my process of adjusting back to an Asian society that focuses on the pragmatic.
How I wish we have the British Library that provides the depth and coverage to areas needed for understanding the contextual and background issues of the Bible (Graeco-Roman materials, and of the Ancient Near East). Not having a school of European history and classics at the universities here does not help. Despite such a transition that interestingly included a period of 'mourning', I am still trying to work towards my driving motivation that had spurred me to do a PhD. The goal is not to allow physical constraints quench the dream. A book proposal of Revelation has been sent out, while knowing fully that a belief in what I have produced does not ensure a 'yes' from an editor.
This objective of a life of biblical research is faced with much difficulty in Singapore. The dearth of culture and thought of Singaporeans is linked to a bias in the what the society sees as worthwhile disciplines to pursue; library holdings naturally reflect the bias. Besides this and the problem with library facilities that can't compete with British libraries (especially the British library), work schedules of lecturers in local Christian colleges do not permit extended time for research and reflection. (I doubt one even has time for any sort of life outside work and church.) The lack of post-doctoral research posts in the theological schools and colleges contributes to the challenge. Equally detrimental is the absence of religious department in the universities here. Perhaps the department of philosophy can begin to absorb such a department for a start?
Here are some musings of a research dream.